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I'm happily married to Mr. Man. We have 2 daughters, Big R and Little R. I'm a stay at home mom. We moved from the big city to the country, living a dream. I'm a collector and a packrat. I'd rather read a book than watch a movie. I battle depression. I love life, but that wasn't always the case. This is my journal.

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Monday, February 26, 2007

Moving On

Well, this will likely be my last entry here.
As you can see, I have this hateful, vindictive (for no reason), sad and bitter person reading (stalking) and commenting.
I do know her, but she hasn't been a part of my life for several years. Can you imagine why? Contrary to her uninformed assumption that I won't just start another blog, anonymously, that's exactly what I plan to do.
You see Cathy, I really don't do this for your entertainment. I've told you why I gave you the address. Just wanted to be clear about your misinformed opinion of my feelings regarding Big R.
This business of me NEEDING an audience, just boggles my mind. I've figured out why you are the way you are, (and thank you for once again showing your true colours for all the world to see), but I can't figure out the audience thing. (If you only knew who my audience is! hehehe)
I don't blame you for being jealous and bitter. But you know what? It isn't my fault. You just take it out on me, as always. That's exactly what my problem with you has always been. Nothing has changed, except that we are no longer in each others lives. Well, except when you put yourself in my life via this blog.
You have no reason to be so hateful and vindictive towards me, other than jealousy. I have asked you time and time again, what I did to you, how I hurt you. You have NEVER given me an answer. Why? Because there is no answer. I've done NOTHING to you. You are just jealous and bitter because your own life has been nothing but one big "misfortune".
You are angry because the one time you asked to borrow money I said no. And we both know I could have lent it to you, and said no, just for pay backs. Of all the times, when you called yourself my friend, you could have helped me out, in some pretty desperate times, you said no. And I'm not just talking about money here. There is so much more to life than money. You always put yourself first and the one and only time I did it right back at you, you have never gotten over it. So how can you even 'not get' why I am so bitter towards you? Think about it. I only did it once, you did it countless!
Laughing at and you "couldn't be happier" to read about my "misfortunes"? That's nothing new, that's what you've always done. That would be YOUR bad karma, LOL. I don't see how that has anything to do with me. That's just the type of person YOU are, not me.
I absolutely agree what goes around comes around. That's why I'm here and you're there. That's why I'm happy and you're not. Nothing is biting me in the ass. You're daft.
Really, learn to differentiate between feelings (like, I feel that my daughter hates me) and truth (she has her own issues). Appearances and reality.
I know you like to think I'm stupid, but that's just one more thing you are wrong about. I'm not so stupid to pour my whole life out in a blog on the WWW, duh.
There is so much more to everything, that you have no clue about. Your comments, judgements, opinions are pretty much uninformed and uneducated. No basis in reality.
I'm over it. I have moved on. My life continually evolves. My world grows and expands. You mean nothing. Your opinions mean nothing. I know where they come from. The one thing I've learned from you is to look out for number one. You can't hurt me any more, as much as you may try to. It doesn't matter.
I won't bother deleting this time, because some people may want to contact me via this blog, with POSITIVE things to say. Yes Cathy, it's true, some people are positive. Some people understand. Some people have even had similar experiences to mine. Some people have had people like you in their lives too. So sad. Some people don't need the "misfortune", downfalls or misery of others to make themselves feel better about their own sad existence.
And to laugh and gain happiness from it? Wow. Like I said, human vulture.
I try to deal with my issues, whether it be through family, friends, doctors, medication, websites, changing my life or writing a blog. I don't hurt anyone, nor do I try to. You somehow see that as wrong, as a weakness. You, on the other hand, deal with your own issues by not dealing with them at all, by pretending they don't exist, by living in denial, by taking it out on others, like me.
So, good luck with that.
Have a nice life (even though I doubt that's possible). I'm moving on.
My "audience" awaits.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

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