Breaking The Ice
I once had a friend. We met by moving nextdoor to each other within a week of each other. It was sketchy at first. She was very leery. I was open to making new friends. Eventually she warmed up and we became close, genuine, friends. We had some really good times. We spent a lot of time together. We got involved in each others lives. A day didn't go by that we didn't see and speak to each other. I admired her for many things. We didn't agree on everything. But we had a lot in common.
Something stupid happened. Stupid words were exchanged. And basically we haven't spoken since. We've both been being stubborn. We were both hurt. This has gone on for almost 2 years now. Last year I bit the bullet and tried talking to her. We talked a bit. I thought we were on the road back to our wonderful friendship. But that doesn't seem to be the case.
Today I was sitting here thinking about her. Its her birthday this week. Last night I was reading a gardening website and that made me think of her. One of the things I admire about her is her gardening knowledge. So she's been on my mind lately. I miss her. So today I rooted through my vintage greeting cards and found the perfect "thinking of you" one. I wrote a little note in it. I made an envelope for it. I added cute stickers. And I trudged through the snow to deliver it to her house. I just left it on her porch where she will see it.
I'm glad I did it and I really hope it breaks the ice and she comes around. This grudge has got to end. But at the same time I feel like a total idiot for doing it. I feel like a stalker or something. I'm hoping it will bring a smile to her day and help her realize that I am really her friend. Maybe she will think of me and all the good times we had. Maybe she will want to talk. Or maybe she'll think I'm a loonybird. I just don't know.
I know I miss her friendship intensely. It's been a big factor in my depression. I didn't expect such a little thing to set us apart. I lost my best friend and fell into a deep depression. But like I said, we've both been stubborn. I've been trying to break the ice. I hope this helps. Wish me luck. You can even pray for me.
Something stupid happened. Stupid words were exchanged. And basically we haven't spoken since. We've both been being stubborn. We were both hurt. This has gone on for almost 2 years now. Last year I bit the bullet and tried talking to her. We talked a bit. I thought we were on the road back to our wonderful friendship. But that doesn't seem to be the case.
Today I was sitting here thinking about her. Its her birthday this week. Last night I was reading a gardening website and that made me think of her. One of the things I admire about her is her gardening knowledge. So she's been on my mind lately. I miss her. So today I rooted through my vintage greeting cards and found the perfect "thinking of you" one. I wrote a little note in it. I made an envelope for it. I added cute stickers. And I trudged through the snow to deliver it to her house. I just left it on her porch where she will see it.
I'm glad I did it and I really hope it breaks the ice and she comes around. This grudge has got to end. But at the same time I feel like a total idiot for doing it. I feel like a stalker or something. I'm hoping it will bring a smile to her day and help her realize that I am really her friend. Maybe she will think of me and all the good times we had. Maybe she will want to talk. Or maybe she'll think I'm a loonybird. I just don't know.
I know I miss her friendship intensely. It's been a big factor in my depression. I didn't expect such a little thing to set us apart. I lost my best friend and fell into a deep depression. But like I said, we've both been stubborn. I've been trying to break the ice. I hope this helps. Wish me luck. You can even pray for me.
3 Comments:
Good on you for trying to make amends! It may take a while for her to warm up to rebuilding a friendship (or perhaps never) but, as long as she knows that you are there for her still, you've done all you can. I hope it does work out though, you two were as thick as thieves.
I think it's a good idea to reach out...in my opinion (if it counts) it makes you the bigger person for reaching out. Best of luck let me know how it goes...
First off, thank you for commenting, I appreciate it.
I'm glad to hear you both think it wasn't the wrong thing to do. I hope it helps to break the ice, but fear I may be seen as a psycho stalker lol. Oh well, we shall see.
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