Just Day Dreaming At 3 A.M

Here it is 3 a.m and I'm wide awake. I took a nap in the afternoon, waking just a minute before Mr. Man arrived home from work. Then I retired for the evening quite early. So it's no surprise I'm up now. Normally in the wee hours like this I feel lonely and distraught, but strangely this morning I feel mellow and content. I feel like writing a book. That would be wonderful if I had any ideas or training. I still think I should take a couple of computer courses and maybe throw in a creative writing course as well. I think I have a book about creative writing. I should read it. I also have books about starting a small business in Canada and making money online in Canada. I have yet to read them either. I tend to read for pleasure not to gain knowledge.

So Little R's math teacher phoned Mr. Man yesterday to report that she wasn't in class and hasn't been there for 6 days. When she came home, and I was just happy that she came home, I asked her about it and she said she had been called down to see a counsellor and that's why she wasn't in class. You would think the teacher would know that. Let's just hope that's the truth. I don't understand it, Little R always loved school. I don't know what has changed. I guess high school is a different world from her little elementary school. I just hope and pray that things smooth out. I don't know what I would do if she followed my footsteps and dropped out. That's just not an option. All I know is I have to handle things differently than my parents did.

I went out to get the mail yesterday and was surprised how mild it felt out there. It felt like spring is coming. I haven't checked the weather forecast lately. I wonder if March will come in like a lion or a lamb. March is usually a wild month. Anything can happen. I thought I was all prepared for this winter. I spent all summer collecting books at yard sales to keep me in reading material for the winter. I bought a couple of cross stitch kits. I've never done cross stitch before, I need someone to show me how to do it. I got a bunch of stuff through Freecycle to make a quilt, again I've never made a quilt before and found it's not something you can just jump into. I have a ton of craft projects to do. I've let the house get into such a state that it's impossible to relax here. I thought I was prepared, but clearly I'm not. So I'll spend this summer getting rid of the clutter and cleaning, so that next winter we actually have somewhere to store our firewood and I have somewhere to sit and do crafts. I'll get someone to show me how to do cross stitch. Next winter I'll be prepared. I know we have at least another month of winter to face. The time is passing quickly thankfully. This year I'm having my yard sale in May and in my own yard. I'll try to recruit neighbours to make it a street sale. I will not get sucked into the community sale at the town hall again. I don't quite understand why I hang onto the stuff I hang onto. Once it's gone I don't miss it. But I am one of these people who just keeps everything, because you never know when you may need it. Or because it was my aunts, or because my father gave it to me. Or because it was such a good deal. I hang onto books. Why? I'll never read them again. I hang onto toys, thinking I would have them for my grandchildren. Why? I can buy new toys for grandchildren, if I ever have any. I am really looking forward to it because I know I'll feel lighter after. I'll feel better. And it will be so much easier to clean this place.

So that's it, dreaming of spring and my yard sale. Hoping Little R gets her act together with school. Hoping things work out for my friend going through a divorce. Wishing I knew how to write a book or at least do some cross stitch.

I checked the weather forecast, they're calling for snow all day today, sigh.
Have a wonderful day.