I'm Exhausted
It's raining this morning. It's supposed to rain all day. I guess it's better than snow. I noticed yesterday that I have crocuses blooming. No pictures yet. Yesterday was a lovely day, windy but mild. Should have taken pictures then while I had the chance. As usual I spent most of the day sleeping. It amazes me how much I can sleep, all day and all night. Of course I was up at 4:30 this morning.
Still living in hell. I can't wait for this nightmare to be over. Again I wish I could share it with the world but I can't. Suffice it to say I wouldn't wish this experience on anyone.
Little R was up to her stunts again the other day. She didn't come home from school until 9:30 p.m. That gave me 6 hours to worry and stress over it. I did call the police at 8:30 but it took them an hour to get their shit together. Because we live in a rural location they couldn't make up their minds who should take the call. By the time they figured it out and were sending an officer out she came strolling in like nothing happened. She continues to skip school and the school continues to do nothing about it. I am aging rapidly. I slept in the next day because I was so exhausted and so she missed school that day too. One of the kids on the street told me I look tired the other day, lol. Ya think?
My first meeting with my therapist went well. I think we'll get along. The meeting consisted mostly of her taking my history. According to her this Borderline Personality Disorder is serious and to be taken seriously. Fortunately the medication I was put on does work somewhat. I don't fly into rages any more, I'm much calmer. I don't have irrational anger. It keeps me on an even keel. Now if I could just not be depressed. I'm calmer but I'm not functioning. And now with this latest nightmare, I'm just paralyzed. Well hopefully she can help me. Being able to get outside will help me. I know it's another month before the nice weather will be here to stay. I'm still afraid to walk Bear down the street after that incident where he attacked another dog. Things sure are quieter with Eddie gone. I'm so glad we found him a new home where he is loved.
I guess I should look around for something to post for Show and Tell Friday. I forgot that it's Friday. My mind is just muddled. I'm off to do that. Have a great day.
Still living in hell. I can't wait for this nightmare to be over. Again I wish I could share it with the world but I can't. Suffice it to say I wouldn't wish this experience on anyone.
Little R was up to her stunts again the other day. She didn't come home from school until 9:30 p.m. That gave me 6 hours to worry and stress over it. I did call the police at 8:30 but it took them an hour to get their shit together. Because we live in a rural location they couldn't make up their minds who should take the call. By the time they figured it out and were sending an officer out she came strolling in like nothing happened. She continues to skip school and the school continues to do nothing about it. I am aging rapidly. I slept in the next day because I was so exhausted and so she missed school that day too. One of the kids on the street told me I look tired the other day, lol. Ya think?
My first meeting with my therapist went well. I think we'll get along. The meeting consisted mostly of her taking my history. According to her this Borderline Personality Disorder is serious and to be taken seriously. Fortunately the medication I was put on does work somewhat. I don't fly into rages any more, I'm much calmer. I don't have irrational anger. It keeps me on an even keel. Now if I could just not be depressed. I'm calmer but I'm not functioning. And now with this latest nightmare, I'm just paralyzed. Well hopefully she can help me. Being able to get outside will help me. I know it's another month before the nice weather will be here to stay. I'm still afraid to walk Bear down the street after that incident where he attacked another dog. Things sure are quieter with Eddie gone. I'm so glad we found him a new home where he is loved.
I guess I should look around for something to post for Show and Tell Friday. I forgot that it's Friday. My mind is just muddled. I'm off to do that. Have a great day.
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