Things Are Going To Be Ok
It's 2 o clock in the morning. I laid down around 7 p.m to read, fell asleep and woke up at 11:30. I'm not sleepy any more. There is not much to do at 2 a.m. There isn't much on tv either. I took my night time meds but they're not making me sleepy.
The last couple of days have been long and boring. I've been very lazy. I don't have Bear getting me out and about in the morning. I'm back to lounging around in my jammies all day. It's not healthy. I need to find the strength to change it. I need to get dressed each day and get outside.
I just stepped out on the balcony. I needed air. Lately I've started having hot flashes. They are quite frequent, several a day. Another joy of menopause. Anyway, it's raining. It really smells like autumn out there now. I'm a little surprised we haven't had any snow yet. I'm disappointed with the fall colours this year. It may have something to do with the cold wet summer. There is no red. It's all yellow. I went with Mr. Man to the Reserve for smokes the other day and I brought my camera hoping to get some nice fall colour shots. I got a few good pictures but it was a disappointment. That was nice spending the day driving with Mr. Man. It was a beautiful day for a drive. We stopped for lunch. It was nice.
I'm now able to go longer times without thinking of Bear. It's getting easier. With time he'll just be a lot of great memories. I want to thank everyone for your kind words and understanding. I needed that and it really helped.
Next weekend is Halloween. It's great that it's on a Saturday this year. All I know about what they do here is the tenants donate candy to be handed out in the lobby. I don't know if the supers dress up or if they decorate the lobby or what. We are going to a party. This is the 14th annual Halloween party, we've been a couple of times. It's very far from home. Sadly I gave away all of our Halloween stuff including costumes. I'm kicking myself for that now. We had boxes and boxes of stuff, I just didn't know where we would put it. But we should have kept the costumes, they could be hung in a closet. I'll be going to the after sales again this year to find costumes for next year.
I'm fighting the depression. I'm trying to keep busy. I'm accepting that which I cannot change. I've been doing a lot of reading which keeps my mind occupied. Things are going to be ok. :-)
The last couple of days have been long and boring. I've been very lazy. I don't have Bear getting me out and about in the morning. I'm back to lounging around in my jammies all day. It's not healthy. I need to find the strength to change it. I need to get dressed each day and get outside.
I just stepped out on the balcony. I needed air. Lately I've started having hot flashes. They are quite frequent, several a day. Another joy of menopause. Anyway, it's raining. It really smells like autumn out there now. I'm a little surprised we haven't had any snow yet. I'm disappointed with the fall colours this year. It may have something to do with the cold wet summer. There is no red. It's all yellow. I went with Mr. Man to the Reserve for smokes the other day and I brought my camera hoping to get some nice fall colour shots. I got a few good pictures but it was a disappointment. That was nice spending the day driving with Mr. Man. It was a beautiful day for a drive. We stopped for lunch. It was nice.
I'm now able to go longer times without thinking of Bear. It's getting easier. With time he'll just be a lot of great memories. I want to thank everyone for your kind words and understanding. I needed that and it really helped.
Next weekend is Halloween. It's great that it's on a Saturday this year. All I know about what they do here is the tenants donate candy to be handed out in the lobby. I don't know if the supers dress up or if they decorate the lobby or what. We are going to a party. This is the 14th annual Halloween party, we've been a couple of times. It's very far from home. Sadly I gave away all of our Halloween stuff including costumes. I'm kicking myself for that now. We had boxes and boxes of stuff, I just didn't know where we would put it. But we should have kept the costumes, they could be hung in a closet. I'll be going to the after sales again this year to find costumes for next year.
I'm fighting the depression. I'm trying to keep busy. I'm accepting that which I cannot change. I've been doing a lot of reading which keeps my mind occupied. Things are going to be ok. :-)
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home