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I'm happily married to Mr. Man. We have 2 daughters, Big R and Little R. I'm a stay at home mom. We moved from the big city to the country, living a dream. I'm a collector and a packrat. I'd rather read a book than watch a movie. I battle depression. I love life, but that wasn't always the case. This is my journal.

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Sunday, August 16, 2009

Another Event Spoiled By The Child

Mr. Man went to pick up our new truck in the morning. It's a beater. There are things wrong with it that he will have to fix. We packed up our bags and the dog and off we went to Lake Erie. It was the worlds longest drive. It was very hot out and we got stuck in a traffic jam on the highway. We were in that traffic jam for an hour and a half. Just creeping along. It turned out there was a major accident on the other side of the road, once we passed that it cleared up. At one point I insisted we get off the highway just to give the dog some water and let him cool down a bit. It was brutal! It was very uncomfortable sitting in the middle between Mr. Man and the dog. We were very late getting to my friends place. We had planned to spend the day there hanging out on the beach. I think it was around 6 when we finally got there. So much for spending the day. The weather, being so hot, was much nicer than the last time we were there. We took the dog down to the beach. This is the first time we have ever taken him to the beach. He LOVED it. He went right in the water, was biting at the little waves as they rolled in, and was jumping around as I splashed him. The water was the perfect temperature. There are a lot of loose dogs around there so we didn't dare let him off the leash. We had a barbecue. The drive was so traumatic I was on a mission and was just sucking back the alcohol. Then the whole thing was completely spoiled by a phone call. I don't know who called who but there was Mr. Man on the phone with Little R and there was some sort of problem at home. Next thing I know he's talking to our super. It was something about letting Little R into the apartment and then there was a carload of boys wanting to get in. So we had to abruptly end the festivities and pack up and leave. We were planning to spend the night. It was a long drive home. I'm still not too sure what exactly happened. I'm so disappointed that we can't even have a night away without some sort of drama. I don't think my friend was very impressed either.

Today is stinking hot again. The dog is limping pretty badly. I'd give anything to be on the beach today. Mr. Man is out working on the truck. It made the drive, I'm sure the car wouldn't have made it, but something is leaking. I tried getting the dog into the shower to cool him off but he wouldn't have any part of it. Little R is acting like nothing happened and went out. No one is online. I imagine everyone is out enjoying the summer weather. So I'm sitting here all alone, bored out of my mind and pissed off about last night. I don't get to see my friend very often, we live so far apart, it really sucks that our visit got cut short. Next time, if there ever is a next time, we are leaving bright and early in the morning. I have a feeling I won't see her again until the fall. And that will only be if I get this apartment cleaned up and unpacked.

Well I guess I'll go out and see how Mr. Man is making out with the truck. Have a great day. Keep cool.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

One Prize Down, Four To Go

It was such short notice. We didn't find out until Monday that the bash was on Thursday. We also thought he only won 2 passes but found out Monday he actually had 4 passes. Nobody would go with us. And how stupid to have it on a Thursday. The car is acting up and Mr. Man didn't really feel like driving it in dowtown Toronto traffic. Besides he couldn't get off work early to get there when the doors open to ensure we got in. So we decided not to go. Also the theme was A Tribute To Woodstock. It would have been a bunch of bands playing 60s music. I wasn't so thrilled about that. Q107 has this party every year. Mr.Man is confidant he will win tickets for it again. Since I was all dressed and ready to go we went to a local bar, had a few beers and played some pool. There was a 2 man band playing. Amazingly they played Boots Or Hearts. One of my favourite songs. I've asked every bar band to play it and they have all said no it's too complicated and yet a 2 man band can play it, go figure.

Last weekend we bought an old truck. Hopefully Mr. Man will be picking it up this morning. It's just a matter of getting a ride to go get it. Well and he has to get the plates and whatnot for it too. We plan on driving it out to my friends place on Lake Erie. Yes we're going back to Wainfleet to see my old friend. I've been asked to bring potato salad again. I like eating it but I hate making it. I should have done it last night but no I put it off til this morning. At least the forecast for today is good. We may actually go on the beach this time. Cathy and her husband are going too. I think Little R is coming with us. This could be awkward with the truck. We'll have to put the dog in the back of the truck. It has a cap on it so it might be hot back there. Hopefully Bear will just relax and lay down. And hopefully the truck is in better shape than the car. It's quite the drive, about 2 hours. I'm excited to be getting a new vehicle, even though it is a beater and I'm excited to be going to see my old friends.

Mr. Man still hasn't had the chance to go downtown to pick up the rest of his prizes. The Playdium and the Wild Water Kingdom will be used for Little R. We probably won't go to the movie, it's a war movie, not interested. The best thing is $100 worth of pizza. You know he says he's only called in a few times and out of that few times he has won twice. So the chances are good that he can win again.

Meanwhile the unpacking is still at a standstill. The apartment is a mess. I spend my days fooling around on the computer and watching tv. I'm a little more comfortable with taking the dog out. I've taken him with me to the store a few times. The day Cathy came up we took him all over downtown Orangeville without incident. I don't know, the fear is still there. We were just lucky we didn't run into any other male dogs.

So today is going to be busy. I'm disappointed that we didn't go to the Q107 Summer Bash, but I'm over it. We'll have fun today. I'm praying there isn't anything wrong with the truck. It'll be nice to see the old friends again. It'll be nice to spend some time on the beach and to take Bear on the beach. I'm gonna go get my day started. Have a great day.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Should We Stay Or Should We Go?

One day last week Mr. Man was pulled over on his way to work to put water in the car, it was still overheating. While he was pulled over he called in to the radio for the Stump The Chump contest. Didn't he win it AGAIN! He only got 2 questions right this time but that was enough to win. He won $100 gift certificate for Playdium, $100 gift certificate for pizza, 2 tickets to a movie, 4 tickets to Wild Water Kingdom and 4 tickets to the Q107 Summer Bash. At first we thought he only won 2 tickets to the bash. He had to wait for an email with his pass which he just got on Monday. He hasn't been able to go pick up his other prizes yet. It turns out this bash is this Thursday. Everyone we've asked to go with us can't go, mainly because they have to work Friday morning. Now Mr. Man is saying he doesn't really want to go if no one goes with us. It's a gotta "win to get in" event. It's a once in a lifetime thing. I don't want to miss it. Mr. Man doesn't really want to miss it either. I am really hoping we can find someone who wants to go.

The car is a wreck. It could just die at any moment. Mr. Man has done some things to it to keep it going. So far so good. Last week my friend D sent me a link to a truck for sale on Kijiji. We went to see it last Saturday and ended up buying it. We're picking it up this week. It's an old beater but it has low mileage. If it lasts a couple of years it will be well worth it.

On Saturday the rain held off all day. I had high hopes that it would just blow over. No such luck. As we were getting ready to go to the party it started raining. It rained pretty much for the whole night. Eventually it did stop. Thankfully it was just a light rain. We went to the party. There were plenty of people there but I think there would have been a lot more if it wasn't raining. There was a pig roast and other food. There was a bonfire, which was cool it was on an island, you had to cross a bridge to get to it. There was a band. Me and Mr. Man pretty much hung out with S & D the whole time. It was like the 4 of us were in our own little world. We danced. We had a great time. None of us won the bike. We danced and partied in the rain. It was fun. We got home around 3 a.m. We left before finding out who won the bike, but we knew already that we didn't win. We could have stayed longer but Mr. Man wanted to go.

This weekend I have to make another potato salad to take to my friend Celestes. The weather is supposed to be nice this weekend for a change. I'm just hoping it isn't windy like it was when we went there in July. Her house is right on the water. I'd like to be able to take the dog on the beach. So we're looking forward to that.

Looking forward to picking up our new beater truck. The next few days are going to be busy. Oh my visit with Cathy last week was good. We took the dog and just walked all over town. We stopped to eat. We sat in the park for a couple of hours just chatting. She got an excellent deal on baby clothes at the Thrift Store. We had a really nice visit.

I think I have Mr. Man convinced we should go to the bash thing whether someone comes with us or not. That's tomorrow. It starts at 7 so really we can make it an early night if we want to. We've never been to the Sound Academy before, I'm into checking it out. Then Friday I'll be making the potato salad to take to Celestes on Saturday. We'll spend the day there and have a good time I'm sure. At some point before that we need to go pick up the truck. It's going to be a busy few days. At some point we need to make arrangements to go to my sisters cottage with my nephew. Looking forward to that also.

Should we stay home or should we go to the bash? That is the question. Have a great day.

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Glad That's Over With

Things are not so bad today. Mr. Man got his meds couriered to him first thing in the morning yesterday so he wasn't miserable once he got them. Then he found a rad for the car and a ride to go pick it up. He changed the rad with no problems and the car is running again. I was just so disappointed that we had to spend the long weekend sitting at home being miserable. I was really looking forward to getting away and having some fun. This has been such a crappy summer. Being cooped up in this apartment is not doing a thing for me. At least when we lived in apartments before we had the cottage and we got away every weekend. Boy do I miss the cottage now.

After he was done with the car he went to work on the bike. It tried to go but they didn't get it running. Next weekend there's another party which we really hoped to have the bike for but I'm no longer counting on that. It doesn't matter if we go on 4 wheels. This is one we've never been to before, heard about since we moved up here but never been, so looking forward to it.

Mr. Man doesn't want a divorce. Thankfully he kept a sane head through the weekend. Once the car was running again I calmed down. But some truths came out. Like I really am very unhappy living here. I know it could be worse, but really not much. Several people told me I need to get a job. Everyone seems to think I'd be happier if I had a job. I don't agree. As I've done in the past I'll get a job when I feel up to working. Otherwise I'd just resent it. I like being home, it's just this doesn't feel like home. I'm just glad the weekend from hell is over and we can now move on.

Cathy got a new car this week so she's coming up to visit me today. We talk on the computer every day, but since she got the car she's never online, she's out and about. I don't know what we're going to do all day. We can't just sit in this apartment all day. I don't know what we used to do all the time back in the day. I think we smoked a lot of pot and played Nintendo lol. I know when she came to visit at the house she ended up leaving early because we got so bored. I guess we'll go out walking and check out downtown Orangeville.

Well she'll be here in a little while so I should get on with it. I haven't taken the dog out yet or anything. Have a great day.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

The Beginning Of The End

What a terrible weekend! Oh the weather was great for once. It was our life that sucked. On Saturday Mr. Man went to work on the bike and I stayed home doing laundry. They think they found the problem with the bike. So Mr. Man had to go to Canadian Tire. We live right near Canadian Tire so he picked me up to go back with him. I didn't get a chance to fold the laundry, it was all piled on our bed. We decided to pick up a case of beer too. Who knows maybe there will be a bonfire. Off we go and the car starts to overheat, then it stalls. After filling up the rad with water it worked, for a bit. Then he figured out the rad was leaking. So back to Canadian Tire to get some stuff that's supposed to stop leaks. And stopping a couple more times to fill it with water. The leak stop stuff never worked. What should have been a half hour or less drive turned into a 2 hour drive. We finally got back there. Bear was thrilled, it's the one place he can run around free. There were a few people there so it was a party atmosphere. The guys lost a tiny little part from the bike that they absolutely had to have and couldn't fabricate. After a few minutes of looking, with my eagle eyes I found it in the gravel driveway! So Mr. Man went back to working on the bike and I proceeded to socialize and drink my face off. We did have a bonfire. The bikes got put away for the night. And I got hammered. At one point I fell down. Get drunk and fall down, that's always fun. We babied the car home and made it. Then I had to move all the laundry off the bed. I was too drunk to fold it so I just piled it on our boxes/dressers.

Sunday Mr. Man figured we just couldn't use the car. He had to fix it. We walked to Canadian Tire to get what he needed. He fixed the fan but realized he couldn't fix the rad. It needs a new rad. We needed groceries badly. We ended up walking to the grocery store! Keep in mind we were supposed to ride to a biker bash with rodeo games on Sunday. But instead we're walking carrying groceries home. I was not a happy camper.

I just really wanted, no needed, to get out of the apartment and be around people. I was so disappointed in everything. What a time for the car to die. But then again I've been telling Mr. Man for weeks it's time to get a new vehicle and he's been ignoring me. So come Monday this is when Mr. Man realizes he left his medication at work. So now he's in extreme pain and experiencing withdrawls. He only found one place open and they didn't have a rad for him. So now he's going to miss Tuesday at work and have to have his pills couriered to him in the morning. Then he's going to have to find a rad, find a way to go get it, and change the rad on the car.

Meanwhile on Monday there was a lot of laying on the couch moaning and complaining. Not what I had in mind for my long weekend. By Monday night I was just furious. I want a divorce. Our life is just going backwards. I am not happy. I will never be happy living here. I've been years without a car of my own. That was a lot worse in paradise. But still I need a car. And going without a car at all was just too much. The bike should have been fixed months ago. By the time it's done, riding season will be over. I'm not happy with Mr. Man for reasons I can't say here. He takes things out on me. He is miserable to me. I've had enough. I'm tired of waiting for the lawsuit, we're going to burn anyways. All because he went back to work. I'm tired of his pain ruling our life. I do believe this is the beginning of the end.